Beating the hell out of my body!

It was our sports day last Friday and the scorching heat of the sun and rigorous activities beat the hell out of my bod. I was too excited to start the day that I felt I breezed through the morning training and crammed my way back to Petron.

By the time we got to Ultra, the sun was already beaming with heat and burning the melatonin in our skin cells. We still continued with the dance that we committed to HR even if we can hardly look at the people watching us. After that, the whole GBS proceeded with the 3.5 K fun run, which I think was totally suicidal. One of my colleagues joked that she thought the whole thing was Alay Lakad and that we should be taking the time to stop and smell the flowers and walk slowly. Wehehe. Talk about running under the sun and having our brains fried out.

After the whole run thingy, we proceeded to our assigned games. I joined the flag football team and this is the exciting part--pushing my body to the limits and literally pushing the person in front of me using my arms and shoulders. We even had our "Great Wall of China" strategy--where the middle defense would embrace the persons beside him and push the opponents till they drop.

One funny thing was when one of my opponents tried to tackle me with 2 open hands, she hung on to my boobs and tried to push me. I can't protect myself but instead tried to firm up my boobs and pushed her with all my might hahaha.

Everything in my body hurt the next day but if you ask me if I'd like to play again, by golly, I definitely will!

D-day :)

Today's valentine's day and it just felt like a normal day... for me valentine's day is a label and it only benefits the chocolate, flower and card companies. :) Not that I'm bitter but I guess one way of looking at it is ...people sometimes "over celebrate" during these kinds of occasions.

Once when I was in highschool, my classmates will usually compare who has the biggest bouquet of flowers and the guys will usually be pressured at this time because they have to make sure they come up with the biggest, and the most beautiful bouquet. There were, at one point, people were looking at the name of the store where the flowers were bought. Funny, huh?

Well I guess, for me, valentine's day, is any day that you celebrate with the one you love--even it meant just holding hands, walking together, eating... oh well. :)

These are just thoughts from someone who's sitting right now, in front of a pc, wondering how a valentine's day should be. I've been celebrating it for years but... when you think of it, you actually celebrate it everyday...when you are with the one you love.

The Rabbit Hole Got Me

I tap my fingers impatiently
As I try hard to focus at work
I feel that the days just drag me by...

I sit every morning, and pray
Hoping that He will remind me
How beautiful life is.

But things are in a limbo as of now
I hang on and try to balance myself
I struggle to take each day everyday.

It's like my soul got lost somewhere
And I walk everyday with an empty stare
But God forbid, I only wish for an end to this lonely state.

Crippled inside

See, smell, touch, hear, taste, I can do perfectly..
A job in place with enough to cope with daily needs
Enjoy materialistic wants I am able to...
But a crippled heart amidst these privileges resides within me.

I am quite unsure how to define it
But helplessness is the feeling I get
whenever I start curing the handicap.
This disabled being seemed to lie in a coma.

I have never felt so unhappy, so uncontented..
I try to look back and track to where it started
But the water washed the footprints I've made along the way
Making it harder to start the search I have so much wanted to work on.

Is this incurable?Will this disability cripple me further?
I long to feel healing within my soul
I want an end to my searchless mission
As I've grown weary of awaiting what'll happen next

The future and its gifts seem futile and unpromising
I have never felt so empty and anxious at the same time
Questions surround my complicated nature
Questions kill me slowly inside.

How do I begin when I don't know what's missing?
I have become the cripple that hid itself from truth.
I have no longing to what else might come my way
As I slowly die of self denial that nudges its ugly horns at me.

Travel Zombie

Have you ever felt that travelling became automatic that sometimes...you don't think of the process of checking in your baggage, paying airport tax, passing through immigration and then proceed to the gates?
Once, I even went to the wrong hotel room because what was stucked in my mind was the room I had the previous week in another hotel, in another country.
People used to say, travelling is so cool, we are so lucky and all...but I don't think so. I miss my popot, I miss eating sinigang, adobo, etc. I miss doing my laundry. I miss driving Martha the Matrix. :(
When I'm alone in the hotel room, I open the television, try to watch even the advertisements for lack of anything else to do.
Aarrrgh. just like now. I don't have anything to do yet but blog. blog. blog. heheh

Think before you speak!!

A lot of times, I can't help but cringe on the statements I hear from some people who talk tactlessly without thinking ....My advice : please take a minute to think of the consequences before you really talk out loud. "Napaghahalata kasing may kakulangan.. hehe"

I am a person who usually stands up for what I believe in...and what I really know. So if there is a time that I'm in a discussion which I'm not very familiar with, I usually don't speak much. But I can't believe the guts of some people to really speak and yet doesn't really know the topic....!!!

But anyway, to each his own.....my other point is never make other people look bad if you don't have a strong case. So a combination of talking out loud without knowing and making other people look bad at the same time is unforgivable!! Totally unforgivable..!!

My patience is running out and I don't intend to "extend" this patience...the screws in my head might just go loose anytime and I can bite heads off... heheh..

The Dawn of a New Day

Everything fell into place...new challenges are to be faced and new opportunities to look into.. :)
They say when you are patient and believe in Him, you will be rewarded. I went through four years of questioning, trying to do everything on my own, not waiting for His will to happen. I was hurt, felt beaten, and lost. But finally, the dawn of the new day arrived...I surrendered and put my hands up....Lord, I am not perfect, help me believe in Your ineffable plan...

I thank Him now for making me see the wonderful and big plan He has for all of us. Even if sometimes we hurt, there is wisdom in every tear, in every pain that we feel. It is indeed true that we have to hurt to feel the joy; that we have to cry to see clearly. :)
Finally, I got what I wanted...I can be at peace with myself...I cannot say there will be no more tears but even bigger obstacles...challenges as I go through a new phase of my career.

Thank you Lord... for helping me keep my faith in You.