Being functional as opposed to being emotional

*functional-- to do things as expected. No more, no less.

I have been passionate all my life about everything I do. I am a person bursting with emotions, full of life, sensitive.. I can go on reading my long list but it doesn't matter. Right now, I am at a point wherein I want to stop feeling...

Being functional for me is an option to escape reality, still be meeting what is expected of me but not being human. I want to take this route so that I can somehow deviate from what I am. Why? Because I think people will ignore me and just let me be. I don't have to worry about what people will say.

Being emotional on the other hand, has caused me a lot of tears, a lot of pain. I need to take a break from all the things that cause me to hurt. I want to be detached from everything, from everyone so that it will be easier for me to leave, to let go. So, by the time I decide to go away from all of this, it wont' hurt as much.

Honestly I don't know how to end this blog... what is expected of me?